Believe in Bountiful

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

Sometimes it’s hard for me to believe how fast the years are rolling by. This time of year comes around and I am a bit stupefied. My brain overflows with all the things I want to resolve to do in the coming year. I am awash with feelings that I wish I had done better the past year. I think intently and rack my brain about how I could do and be better in the days ahead.

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

Honestly, much of me gets tired with this run around in my head. These are just a handful of some of the things I say to myself: I want to be more present with the kids. I want to lose weight. I want to finish what I start. I want to procrastinate less. I want to keep the house clean. I want to exercise more. I want to achieve big things with my business. I want to be stronger. I want to make an editorial calendar and stick to it. I want to make the bed every morning.  I want to be a better mother. I want to be a better friend. Does this list sound familiar? Over the years, I have had resolutions with respect to all these things, to some success, but more commonly to failure.

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

I’ve been thinking about how I am always in a constant state of how can I be better or more than I am.  It doesn’t necessarily have to do with the turn of the year. I obsess over this idea every day. I think it is a good goal to want to be better and to do better, to want to improve.  Yes, it is good. But I think underlying all my desires to be a better person is a very real feeling and belief that I am just not enough. I am not good enough, fast enough, loyal enough, organized enough, interesting enough, creative enough, healthy enough, hard working enough, loving enough. And in truth, this is the fundamental and flipping unhealthy problem.

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

If you try to build a tower atop a flimsy foundation, is it any wonder that it comes tumbling down. The more I rant and rave about myself, hurl criticisms my way, insult and generally beat up myself, the weaker my foundation is when I start trying to build again. It shouldn’t be surprising that some of my aspirations and goals come tumbling down.

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

What would happen this year if I allowed myself to think and believe that I am enough? Honestly, what I want to believe whole-heartedly is that I am more than enough.

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

So much more, in fact, that I just don’t need to worry so much. I can let go. I can be easy. I can relax. I can enjoy. More than “enough,” I want to know, feel, BELIEVE in bountiful. I am bountiful. I am ample. I am abundant just as I am.

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I am a good mother.  I am a good friend. I am a hard worker. I am energetic. I accomplish a lot in my days. I am creative. I am a talented artist. I am a beautiful person both internally and externally. I always do my best. I make mistakes and I learn from them. What if I hurled compliments my way instead of insults?

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If I put my whole-hearted energy into believing these things, believe that I overflow, that I pour forth bounty and goodness just the way I am.

A girl's journey to believe in bountifulWhat will happen? What could happen?

A girl's journey to believe in bountiful

I will be sharing my journey to believe in bountiful this year (#believeinbountiful). I have a couple ideas about how to approach my life through a different lens that I will start to share with you, but I could use some help. Do you guys have ideas? thoughts or practices that could help me?  Please, please share!

Happy New Year!  Here’s hoping you believe in bountiful too!

  1. Lori

    Beautifuly said and you are dear a precious to me – many blessing Anne for 2016
    Xoxo
    Lori

    • Lori, Thanks so much for your kind words! Happy New Year as well! Anne

  2. You are beautiful. Don’t ever stop telling yourself that.
    Also, this is a lovely idea.

    I’m doing a 30 day yoga challenge (big deal for me!) and she has daily mantras as part of it. Always thought it was hokey, but 5 days in and I see a difference in personal positivity and acceptance.

    • Thanks so much Cheryl! Love that idea of 30 day yoga challenge. Good for you. Sometimes it’s hard for me not to think of the approach I describe in my post as a little new-agey hokey, but honestly, I’m sick of being so hard on myself. So, here i am embracing it. xo

  3. Anne

    Anne–Happy New Year from one of your Squam bunk mates. I like this post and your positive approach. I used to set those big scale resolutions–being a better mother, working toward world peace, etc–and then felt constant “fail” and that I could never be good enough. My more recent approach has been to come up with very limited and tangible resolutions that can actually be accomplished. Two examples: Several years ago I was heavier than I wanted to be so I decided to count calories daily so that I could understand what I was actually eating. As a result of simply keeping track, I fairly quickly dropped the excess because the process made me eat consciously. Another resolution was to drive no faster than 25 mph in my neighborhood. Doing so ended up making me more considerate as a driver in other residential areas. For me, the key is achievable goals and maintaining the attitude that little steps add up to larger ones.

    • Thanks so much Anne. I appreciate your thoughts and agree that those small promises somehow seem best. Thanks for taking the time to let me know your thoughts, too. I like that little steps will eventually add up to big ones!

  4. Paige

    Anne, I love this post. I’ve been thinking along the same lines, being driven crazy by my internal dialogue to do more/achieve more/be better. This New Year, I opted to do two things: 1) Not announce any resolutions, intentions, etc. in any public way — to friends, family, Facebook, etc. I have one or two things that I want to think about during the year, but nothing that’s going to make me feel I failed if I don’t keep it going. 2) I bought a planner that holds the things that I’m proudest of or filled my heart that day. Each night before I go to bed, I go to the calendar pages, and write down the 1 or 2 or 10 things ABOUT ME or the things I did that brought sunshine to that day. We’re only a few days in, but it’s been such a shift in thinking.

    Anyway, sorry to drone on. Hugs to you, my beautiful, talented, creative, accomplished, energetic friend. You also happen to be pretty inspirational, by the way. XO

    • Thanks so much, Paige! It’s so funny, one of my first posts about this was going to be the DONE list. I want to write down all the things i DO DO. 🙂 But I like adding the other things too. You are amazing and talented yourself! I’m so glad to call you a friend!! Hugs to you!

  5. Jen Bunch

    So well said, Anne! We need more of this sentiment in a world that otherwise wants us to believe we must be thinner, richer, more “perfect.”

    • Thanks Jen. I feel like its a good theme for this year! Glad your back 🙂 Let’s grab coffee some time!

  6. Tierney

    Your post is beautiful, and I’m on a similar path. Paring down to mainly essentials and beloved treasures throughout our home (over a period of time) helped me gain a certain clarity and focus in many areas of my life. It also helped me allow more organic, natural and local into our home, including food, body care products, cleaning products and home furnishings. They don’t have to be expensive, and they often feel more indulgent and luxurious. A welcome change that I will continue to build on.

    • Hi Tierney,
      thanks so much for your kind words. I love the idea of paring down to the things that bring bounty and joy to you. I too feel the need to clean out the clutter. I like this whole idea of being kind to yourself even in the way you surround yourself. beautiful.
      anne

  7. stacy

    Can you see me standing on my couch cheering for you right now?!?!?!? Cause i totally am. Love you so much lady, just the bountiful way you are. Cant wait to squeeze in a few short days!

    • Hi Stacy! You’re the best! You light up the world! are you talking about Alt? because I’m not going this year ;( Sad I won’t get to squeeze YOU!

  8. Sophie

    Thank you for this post Anne. It made me realize that I’ve had the same aspirations for a long time. Year after year it’s pretty much the same thing . Yes, I do want to be more present for my daughter. Yes, I do want to finish what I start. Yes, I do want to make an editorial calender happen this year and I want to stick to the plans I create in it. It’s nice to know there are other women who have similar feelings as I do in life. That means I’m not alone. But, I don’t want to have these things be aspirations anymore. I want this year (this day) to be the time that I make things happen.
    – Sophie
    http://www.timelessmodesty.com

    • Sophie, Thanks for your comment. I do understand that desire to actually make aspirations a reality. I think we can still do that and not be so hard on ourselves! Celebrate small steps, I say!

  9. Bonnie Brannon

    I am new to your blog, and this perspective on personal change struck a chord deep within me. Although. I agree that beating up on ourselves generally results in not much more than beating up on others over whom we have influence, exercising the virtue of humility to acknowledge where self-indulgence continues to keep us from achieving our personal best is a “pearl of great price” in my view. I’m unfamiliar with the concept of an “editorial calander.” What is it, and how is it used?
    Thank you for a thought-provoking post 🙂

    • Thanks so much for your comment Bonnie. I do agree that an amount of temperance is important and ability to self-assess honestly (without being mean to yourself) is key. This isn’t meant to be a ticket to let responsibilities go, but more to approach life as if I’m doing just fine. I think it’s the starting point and the voice we speak to ourselves with that make a difference in how we approach the rest of the world. Thanks for your thoughts. An Editorial Calendar is the plan or schedule I have for my blog, what projects, essays and patterns to post when, etc.

  10. Joanne

    Anne, I have just stumbled onto your blog and wow! What an incredibly courageous and honest post. All the very best for the new year and I can’t wait to read your future blog posts.

    • Hi Joanne, Thanks so much for your kind word and taking the time to leave a comment. I am so glad you found me!! Anne

  11. Megan Byrne

    Hi Joanne, thanks for the great post. I found you through Abby’s blog but I think I will stay and help you on this discovery journey. It’s sad that we allow ourselves constant doubts about our worthiness. It’s preprogrammed in women to be self sacrificing, that any attempt at doing something for self (often termed selfishness) is seen as some kind of wrong. I am glad that your call to action is about sharing in this discovery of your unique womanly goodness. We are after all 51% of the population of the world, there’s power in that.

    • Agreed! Thanks so much for your comment! I’m glad you found your way here. xo

  12. Fantastic! Right on track! Love it!
    and, if you don’t read him already, you might enjoy…
    http://markmanson.net he has a great one on his blog about “goals” vs. “habits” which i JUSt finished reading and then read your blog post.
    i’m in total agreement: I love this idea of hurling compliments and good thoughts towards myself, rather than the opposite.
    Thanks for the good thoughts.

    • Thanks so much Molly! i’ll go check that out. Yes! hurl fantastic thoughts your way!!
      xo

  13. I have struggled with feelings of not being enough for…well, probably all my life. I didn’t realize I felt that way until recently, and it was a very important discovery. Now I am committed to noticing whenever I don’t feel good enough and snapping out of it as soon as possible. This has resulted in a huge shift.
    Thank you for reminding us all to be more loving to ourselves!

    • Thanks so much for your sweet message! It is a huge discovery, isn’t it!? It’s such a long path to remember, catch yourself and change those voices in you head, isn’t it?

  14. gina

    Beautiful. True. Marvelous. You! Beautiful words for a woman I’m so glad to have met in the past year. May you see all the bounty that you are, in the coming year!

  15. Whitney

    I have struggled with this too. Several years ago I started noticing how mean I am when I talk to myself. I said horrible things and called myself names, and I don’t think this is unusual. I decided to try to always treat myself as I would my dearest friend, to not be so harsh and judgmental, and to stop with the name-calling. It has helped me tremendously and overall has helped to boost my self-awareness, so that when I forget and start in on the mean, I can stop myself. Good luck with your journey, it’s a difficult but worthy one.

    • Oh Whitney! I’m so glad you came to that conclusion. I have to practice that – speaking to myself the way I would a friend. I like that. Thanks so much for your comment!

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